The moment that changed everything.
she looks awful….
wjhat is an armin alert
that is a really good pic of miley, did you draw it
The first year at the Academy, Bones managed to convince Jocelyn that Christmas with the whole family would be better for Joanna than Christmas without her daddy and Jim’s mom had been on shore leave in Iowa, so they both went home and suffered through tense Christmases with a vague feeling of being unwanted.
Their second Christmas at the Academy, Jocelyn told Bones that they were having Christmas at her new husband’s place and he was not in any way invited home this year. Jim’s mom had told him last minute that she was planning on spending the holiday at Sam’s place - and Sam and Jim’s relationship had never quite recovered from the mutual blame they laid on each other during their time on Tarsus. He’d be staying at the Academy this year, too.
It was obvious to him that Bones had more of a family to mourn than he did. He knew that Joanna was the most important thing in Bones’ life. So he slathered on the cheer and decorated their dorm and made plans to cook a full Christmas dinner just for the two of them. No way would Bones feel like he didn’t have family this year. Besides, Jim would rather spend it with him than with a random girl he picked up at a bar like the last few years running.
Then Bones came home angry and saw the decorations and told Jim to take it all down. He wasn’t celebrating this year, not when everyone he loved was 2500 miles away and he was completely alone. Jim took those words like a bullet to the chest and quietly accepted that he wasn’t enough again, not for anyone and especially not Bones.
He contacted Pike and used up every last ounce of his goodwill in convincing the man to organize a surprise vacation for Jocelyn and Joanna to California. They arrived on Christmas Eve, new husband and step-father in tow, but they stopped by to see Bones even though Jocelyn had promised he wouldn’t see his daughter on Christmas this year.
Jim knew when they were coming and escaped from the angry, silent prison that had been their dorm room since Bones had shouted at him four days earlier. He stumbled into the first bar he found and drank himself sick until they closed up shop.
It was supposed to be Bones’ first Christmas alone, but it wound up being Jim’s instead.
On New Years Day, Jim finally crashes through the door of their dorm after bouncing from bed to bed for a week and chasing the need to be wanted. He’s exhausted and hungover and he hasn’t slept right since Christmas Eve. Bones meets him at the door with a grin and laughs out well, somebody clearly had a fun week and Jim realizes that Bones thinks he’s been partying, not desperately begging for someone to fill the place where his soul is supposed to live.
Bones tells him all about the day he spent with Joanna and isn’t it crazy how they won that contest? They went ice skating and Bones fell down twice, but he didn’t care because Joanna thought it was funny and, god, it was so good to hear her laugh.
Jim thinks about the six people who’s beds he’s been in this week and remembers how not one of them laughed or even smiled, but pushed him down and tried to give him what he needed while they took what they wanted. He thinks about how he’s been drunk for a week and his chest aches with something the best doctors couldn’t fix. He remembers the gaping hole he feels every time he closes his eyes and counts how many people he loves who don’t love him back.
Bones tells Jim it was the best week since he got to the Academy (Jim hears since I met you, because it’s the same thing, really) and Jim laughs hollowly because it was the worst one of his life.
Their third Christmas at the Academy, things are mostly back to normal even though Jim doesn’t forget where he stands with Bones. He can never forget because the last time he did, he was reminded too harshly that he’s a stand-in who just barely meets the low expectations Bones has. Bones asks him what he’s doing for Christmas and Jim’s chest has never felt so tight - he can barely breathe when he tells Bones he’ll probably just head back to Iowa.
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Steven Moffat, on Christopher Eccleston’s absence from the 50th Anniversary. (via sea-change)
Christopher Eccleston just big time “fuck you”d the whole retcon of Gallifrey ending because it was a HUGE part of Nine’s character and it just
flew over Moffat’s head
and I think that summarizes Moffat’s writing really well
Johanna is incredibly perceptive, sarcastic and brash. She speaks her mind, regardless of the consequences, or who she hurts. While Johanna has a very hard exterior, she definitely understands the greater good of the districts and would lay down her life for freedom.